WE DON’T REALLY TALK ABOUT THIS DO WE? THE SUICIDE FEELINGS? WHEN I WAS 15 I TOOK MY FATHERS EPILEPSY MEDICATION TO KILL MYSELF. I DID NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO BOARDING SCHOOL AT ALL AND MY FATHER SAID I COULD LEAVE AND LIVE WITH HIM. I WANTED TO. BUT MY MOTHER WOULD NOT LET ME. WOW, IF I HAD…….. BUT SHE WOULD NOT LET ME.

I HATED THE FACT THEY WOULD NOT LET ME DECIDE WHAT I COULD OR COULD NOT DO. HOW DARE THEY! SO I TOOK ALL THESE PILLS……………

AND SLEPT FOR 2 DAYS BUT WOKE UP TO CHUNDER…..
AND NOONE NOTICED.
WELL….THAT KINDA MADE SOME POINT, UT I LIVED.
BUT AT THAT TIME I SAW NO FUTURE, I JUST SAW A DARK CLOUD A VOID A NOTHING….I SAW NO WAY FORWARD SO I TRIED TO KILL MYSELF…..
AND I LIVED. AND NO ONE KNEW I TRIED. BUT I DID. GOOD.

THIS VIDEO JUST TURNED UP TODAY AND IS DOING THE ROUNDS. WHATEVER THAT MEANS. POELPLE ARE SHARING THIS VIDEO BUT I THINK IT NEEDS CONTEXT. THAT IS WHY I AM SHARING THIS STORY. SOMETIMES IT IS HARD TO SEE A END TO THE DARKNESS, ANDE PEOPLE NEED TO KNOW IT LIFTS,

BUT AT THAT TIME,,,,I SAW NO FUTURE I SAW ONLY CLOUDS….BUT YOU GET THROUGH THEM. BECAUSE THAT IS LIFE. YOU CELEBRATE. YOU REVEL. WE ARE ALIVE. AND WE MUST RESPECT THAT.

OH, I LIVED. HAHAHAHAHAH. THATS ME IN THE TOP PHOTO. AND NOW I LIVES. X

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